So after being incapable of thinking about what’s wrong with myself, at last and at least I have one hypothesis.
There’s just one thing -and it’s really big thing for me- that almost everyone I know already have it, but I don’t and haven’t have it. It seems like an impossible thing for me, and I know once I have a chance to get it, I will just ruin all of it.
The thing is called “*piiip* (censored)” hha, well I just don’t want to mention it right now. Sorry for my bad language
